Afraid To Fly
The Fearless Series: Book Two
I’d like to tell you that I’m ok.
That the meaningless sex with countless women has somehow numbed the pain. That it’s deciphered the constant confusion in my head. Eased the self-hatred that sinks into my gut every time I look in the mirror.
I’d like to tell you that time heals all wounds.
That we evolve and grow into well-adjusted, stable adults, set on a path to right the world’s wrongs. That we are not our past…we are not our pain.
I want to tell you all those things. Hell, I want to believe all those things. But I’d be lying. I’m good at that. Living a lie is the only way I truly know how to survive.
But the day I saw her, I stopped surviving. I stopped existing. And for the first time in 24 years, I started living.
She brought me back to life. Set me free and sent my soul soaring. Made this useless shell of a man feel like…something. Something whole and real and good.
She saved me.
Although she believes I wasn’t even worth saving.
“Desire is just concentrated madness of the body and soul.” she whispered. “Do you want my crazy?”
When I first read Fear of Falling, I remember being immediately intrigued by Kami’s best friend Dom’s character. I loved how kind and supportive he was with Kami, even though you could tell he had a lot of issues of his own. I wanted to see what those issues were. I wanted to see what made Dom tick. It’s been a while since I’ve read FoF, and I was very excited when I heard this book was being released and made sure to read it straight away. I’m happy I did. I loved it even more than the first.
My heart broke for Dom. Going into his past and reading about what happened to him as a child was not easy. No one should ever have to experience anything like that. Dom didn’t always cope in the healthiest ways, but it was easy to understand why he did it. Why he was the way he was. Even with some unhealthy coping, Dom is a stand up guy. I admire his character and the way he choses to take the bad that happened to him and devoting his life to making sure those same things don’t happen to other children. People who devote their lives to jobs that are too difficult for most amaze me. It’s so unselfish and giving.
Raven is a girl who has a past as well. It’s so different than Dom’s, but it’s still there. She works two jobs to support her brother, who Dom is a mentor to. Toby (Raven’s brother) is a special character. I loved how there were so many wonderful characters in this story. There were times I wondered what Raven’s real motivations were. I didn’t know where she was coming from and what she was about in a lot of this book, but once it clicked… it really clicked. I got it. I understood her.
This story isn’t all about the love. One of the things I love most about this book is the relationships within the story. These characters aren’t just friends. They are a family. A real true family full of loving and supportive people. Just like in FoF, I loved the dynamic of Dom, Kami and Angel.
Between me, Angel and Kami, we were more nuts than Almond Joy, and we still managed to find each other in this big, wide, crazy world.
There is love. Even when Dom and Raven might not have wanted to admit it, their love started much earlier than either one thought. And it only developed as they became friends of sorts and Raven started to trust Dom. That attraction was always there, but the trust took time. When it finally happened and they were able to open up to one another, it was a glorious thing.
“I want to be anywhere else too… with you.”
Sometimes the happiest endings don’t have the most beautiful journeys. This story was raw, it was real and at times intense. I loved the strength of these characters and how they fought to get through their issues and overcome their pasts. Jenning’s writing is wonderful. She excels at these emotional and captivating stories.
Afraid to Fly is a powerful read. It’s got characters who are broken and damaged but find a way to move past it. It’s a love story, but it’s much more than that. Books like this make me think, make me feel, and inspire me. I highly recommend this book and I hope there is more to come with this series.
You are not your past. You are not your pain. You are kindness and strength and beauty. You are love.
“You’re bigger than my fear, bigger than my pain. You’re the most perfect part of me.”